(:

2010-05-10T03:04:00.005+08:00

Continue stalking at

http://www.fifteenth-four.blogspot.com/ :D

2010-04-20T13:27:00.001+08:00

Game over. :)

2010-04-19T16:32:00.007+08:00

let's play pretense now,

i will probably try to enjoy the game.

you must be really stupid thinking i'm really okay with the things you say, laughing and brushing it off like it doesn't matter even the slightest bit.

or maybe i'm the one being stupid here.

forget it, cus you will never know.

sometimes, just sometimes, you make me feel all so dead.

2010-04-18T13:29:00.001+08:00

so damn cute!

my student just called me on my handphone to check what i'm doing. haha!

and she went like, " cheryl jie jie, i miss you. "

hahaha! cute ttm! :D

2010-04-17T23:38:00.007+08:00

i suddenly have this whole scene in mind:

Girl (looks passionately in Guy's eyes): *i love you now. i love you always.

Guy-face immediately turn white (thinking): oh shit, wtf! tmd! she just said she loves me! omgosh! DIE.

then Guy, painfully forced out a smile: **don't love me lah. haha i'm not good enough. it's me... i have a problem.. it's not you.

Girl, with tears filled up in her eyes, turn away dramatically then runs away, with a white scarf flying behind her.

then Guy heaved a sigh of relief: HENG AH. she ran away on her own! :D

then continue to keep a look out and Girl slowly "disappear" (okay, run out of sight)

then Guy jumps high high up into the sky, with legs super wide up then a super big smile, with a super twist.

end.

*from yst's Meet Joe Black. LOL! except it's said by the guy.

**credits to Mr Vincent Ong-the typical breakup line for guys. HAHA!

LOL! okay. this is going nowhere totally.

fuck, just nice i type everything finish and a lizard speeded across and i screamed -.- LOL

okay! going to sleep now. i think and i hope! haha! :)

2010-04-17T04:56:00.007+08:00

spent 3 hours watching Meet Joe Black (again) :D

3rd time watching already and it's still damn nice!

seriously the only movie i rewatched.

here if you wanna watch it. :)

and the scenes are damn cute too. love the ending party the most. hehe :)

i'd probably watch it again.. maybe 4/ 5 years from now? LOL

"please tell me you love me"

"i love you now. i love you always." :)

alright, coming 5.30am now and i'm going to sleep soon.

LOL, i'm so dead. have been sleeping at such timings everyday.

tsktsk.

2010-04-17T00:46:00.003+08:00

suddenly like blogging and typing alot recently. :/

i think i'm going crazy already, seriously. LOL, with all the random highness.

ohmygoodness! but nevermind hehe! :)

haha! and my brother is damn cute!

he was like complaining why maths cannot grow up and solve their own problems.

i totally LOL-ED at him. HAHAHA!!

on a random note,

like something that daddy told me when walking back today, he told me that there's no age limit to getting rich, to being successful it's just how. and then he told me to find my own way there. :)

hehe, and i saw this picture on tumblr.

the boy is so cute lah! :DD

and i suddenly feel like watching Meet Joe Black again.

hehe :)

2010-04-16T14:15:00.004+08:00

hahaha! i know this is very lame and has no point.

or maybe it's like a "internal joke"? LOL

anyhow, i seriously like this post, thats why it's here on my blog :D

lol. cycling was postponed cus it looked as if it was going to rain heavily -.-

nevermind! we can always go another day! haha :)

2010-04-16T02:04:00.003+08:00

this is going to be wordy post cus i'm too lazy to post pictures and i totally feel like typing now! haha!

but okay, firstly and most importantly,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME :)

was looking and laughing at the pictures taken during chalet.

haha! the pics were like so funny, esp some which i seriously don't even remember taking them. :P

well, anw 18 wasn't really a blast.

but just wanna thank all those who remembered and tried to make it special.

thanks for the wishes and presents.

really appreciated it alot alot. (:

haha, i still remember me discussing with my sis & friends many many years ago about what i was going to do on my 18th birthday.

1. going to apply for driving license! - but apparently, i think the law changed it to 21! rah!

2. go buy 4d! - lols! but i keep forgetting today! didn't even thought of it till 8plus :/

3. go drink! - cus keep thinking i wldnt go for underaged drinking, but guess now it doesn't make any diff :P

4. catch a m18 movie- same like the alcohol. but i caught my first m18 movie already! LOL

funny how i keep thinking about "these" but end up spent my day tutoring, and then being a good kid, attended night class. went straight home after that. lols

hm, i actually wanted to make a birthday post on the day itself, before 12am. but was really moodless.

had a really long chat with Yahan. haha, nice chat. (:

seriously must thank her, been helping me since sec school and now still helping me. hehe! sometimes don't know if she's suay to know me or i'm lucky to know her. but in both cases, thanks babe! haha :D (hm, know that she wont see this lah, probably lols)

but what she said was true. shouldn't waste time focusing on the insignificant stuff.. but at the end, words are still words; it's the actions that determines everything at the end. oh well. (:

still not sleeping yet. cycling at 9, gonna be so dead tmr.

but oh well. just wanna spend the night listening to jay chou's music + probably read my past posts.. diary. idk. i might even be too lazy to walk to my wardrobe, unlock my drawer and take out my diary. haha! see how?

omg, i'm like talking to myself now. o.o

okay. i should stop, like now haha!

its 4.03am now.

sweetest dreams to everyone sleeping :D

hello E. :)

2010-04-14T01:09:00.003+08:00

seeing Stitch makes me feel happy and i will smile :)

hehe!

and so cute lah! i want a LCD display like that!

costs like 800euros! click here! there's like so many other more Stitch products lah! CUTE :D

okay! i think i've an unhealthy addiction for Stitch.

but nevermind!! :DD

HAHA!

sleeping now. GOODNIGHT! :)

2010-04-13T03:21:00.003+08:00

too many things to be summarized,

and words can't accurately describe how i'm feeling now exactly.

if it must really be put into words, then

IT'S A FUCKING GREAT WEEK AHEAD and before :D

2010-04-06T23:18:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!! :D

great day today! :)

lunched together with family, had my run. (like finally, after all the procrastinations!)

HEHEHE!!

oh yeah,

although this song's in Cantonese, but there's lyrics in Chinese and i think its nice ttm. :D

mmm, nothing much to blog about already.

so, bye! :D

2010-04-03T21:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was one of the bests days in 2008/9.. probably 10. (:

and wait! before i start typing further, this entire post is gonna be all text, text and still oh, text as you can see just in a glance. :DD

yup, anyway, Good Friday was really awesome! :DD HAHA!

spent it with my dad, my mom, my sis, my bro and MYSELF = whole family! (double :D)

been a long long long long time since dad/mom were so spontaneous on such last minute outings. hehehe

original plan was actually to get our asses into JB in the morning to have our breakfasts there and then catch a couple of movies together. butbutbut, we realised that my brother's passport expired already! damn disappointing lah! cus everyone was like quite excited and looking forward to it cus that Friday was a good day to go since we could all rest the next day or something and we didn't have tuitions/night classes/schools cus it's a public holiday. rah! in the end everything was cancelled cus to apply for passport, we need like 3 working days~ ):

anyway, on Friday afternoon itself, we were like discussing where to go, either that, or stay at home and rot. :/

hehe, in the end we went like on a small food hunt together at 2plus.

Somerset's Porridge > Ion's Takoyaki > Mount Faber's Nasi Lemak > Chinatown's Fishhead > ended with desserts somewhere near Chinatown too.

niceeeee like mad. :D all the good food in one day. SINFUL!!! LOL

after that headed down to Clarke Quay for light drinking. (: - waited for like 3hours -.- but that 3hours passed very quickly cus was SMS-ing all the way. :D :D

back home at 3.30am.

and before i slept last night, felt that it was a really GOOD Friday and i want to have a replay again.

hehe!

today was great too!

Crystal Jade with Grandma. :D

feel like so long never see her le (:

after that rushed off for class while the folks shopped around.

and nownownow,

i'm having a mini debate with my own.

should i open a chalet for my birthday? ):

i know everybody will say like of course..

but i want to only celebrate my birthday when i'm really worth something and worth the effort to. sooooooo, should i hold it back? sacrifice 18 - which i've kinda been looking forward to after all these years.. sacrifice 18 and make 19, 20, 21,22.... a blast?

delayed gratification?

this shall be my motivation for E ?

and i was told that birthdays are being celebrated cus you are thankful that the person is brought to this world.. so even more... i kinda don't really see the point..

HMMMM. i need to make a decision like FAST!!

2010-03-31T12:11:00.002+08:00

hehe!

Toothless is a remodel of Stitch!! :DD

niceeeee!

i'm gonna meet my FIRST student/victim/whatever you call later.

hope the student(he/she) is cute and hope the Mummy is a nice one. :D

hehehe!

2010-03-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

HEHEHE!

just back from a movie with bro at downtown.

caught How To Train Your Dragon.

and its DAMN NICE!!!

NIGHT FURY IS SUPER SUPER CUTE TTM!

esp when its looking so innocent with its eyes wide open and opening its mouth like the picture above HEHE! :DDD

now i want a dragon as a pet!!

hohoho~! :DDD

2010-03-29T02:03:00.003+08:00

it's 2.03am now.

hate timings like this cus everyone's like asleeeeep,

and there's nothing much for me to do...

sooooo,

nothing to do = think a little too much ):

it's a vicious cycle, you see.

and damn, i'm having insomnia recently.

super tired but can't sleep at the right timings. rah!!

2010-03-28T19:56:00.003+08:00

"hi dumbdumb"

"i'm no dumbdumb, you are dumbdumb. where's my gumgum"

HAHAHA!! so cuteeee! :DD

night at the museum is on Ch5 now, and i'm watching it. - now commercial. :D

Bye! :D

2010-03-28T00:41:00.004+08:00

27 March 10 :)

sentosa sentosa sentosa with PUISI

came back with 240 PICS in few hours. HAHAHA!!

♥♥♥

love the beach, love the sun

love this babe, love today :D

i want to go to the beach again!! HEHEHE!!

i seriously need to:

1. pack my room (getting super super dusty like zomg!! )

2. get sunblock! (since last year) LOL

now thinking if i should get Sentosa annual pass! considering the number of times i'm going in per year, getting a pass is much cheaper. HMMMM.

2010-03-25T05:14:00.002+08:00

Cheryl Ong, Please Focus.

great, it's 5.14am now.

can't get to sleep. tmr work sure die. -.-

2010-03-21T23:08:00.005+08:00

work today, and i was on my handphone's music player from 10AM all the way to 8.30PM (non-stop okay). thats likeee, nearly 10hours straight! i was nearly at the end of my 700+ tracks playlist when i was about to reach home.

wow or what! LOL

okay, this will be a super wordy post cus i totally feel like typing right now. :D

anyway, since my job-scope(giving out flyers) is near to zero brain-usage capacity, was observing the people all the way.

and i categorized the people, not based on looks and the way the dress, but on their response when i give them the flyers. hehehe!

1. The super stressed group! - mostly everyone looks damn stress! all work but no fun = boring. so must relax abit! they are all like rushing rushing rushing~ to dunno where! o.o

2. The "over-heighted" & "blind" group- those taller people, they will act like they never see you!! and they will just look whats STRAIGHT-ahead of them one leh!! never look down or at least show a handsign that they don't want the flyer!! then the blind group is the majority of people lah, they totally just ignore you and walk straight, even if your arm is in front of them of what. omg~ ugly ugly side of singaporeans.

3. The typical Singaporean Cheapskate group- LOL!! they take the flyer cus they saw the big word there "FREE". but hahaha, not much of an issue. happy that they are taking the flyers. LOL

4. The polite group- hehehe, these group of people are nice. they don't want right, they still will give you a damn big smile and say no thank you with handsign also. and sorry hor, majority are not singaporeans.

5. The sympathetic group- cus at 2-3plus, before the rain came, some of the passerbys purposely came up to me and took a flyer. probably because the previous few in front didnt want to take from me ):

and got one uncle, he directly say, "i help you take to lessen your workload" HAHA!!

6. The directions group- they will just ask you for directions without taking the flyer!! rah!! ):

and got one guy super funny, i was at somerset, he asked for directions to orchard. so i told him to just walk further down, and he will reach orchard.

and next thing he did was to POINT DOWNWARDS-literally. means UNDERGROUND. then he, in that lost look, asked- down? (still pointing downwards). HAHAHHAHA!! i swear i was holding back my laughs. LOL

7. and lastly, the damn cute group-

1st, was this old caucasian, i gave him a flyer. and he gave me back the flyer he took before that! it was some taka jewelry flyer that was being distributed further up from where i was standing. i just take the flyer he gave me lah. and after that he gave me a pat on my shoulder like- thanks a lot, kinda thing. -.- HAHA! but the uncle damn cute!

2nd, B&J's flyer distributor walked past, then we exchanged flyers. LOL!!

3rd, the small little kids will want to take another of the flyer if their parent took. so cute lah! they will look at you in that look- why you give mummy/daddy but never give me? HAHAHA!!

but anw, the job is ultra super duper duper slack, either that, or im efficient. AHEM :P

cus i gave myself 2hours break in between, and after finish distributing everything, i went taka continuing slack for another 2hours. =X

luckily(or unluckily) im traind and conditioned by someone to slack by myself for 2 hours or more. -.-

hahaha!! and Joey is another cute one. :D

must thank her esp cus she really accompanied me all the way smsing. :DD (okay, and maybe abit of Austen too) HAHAHA!!

i want more workworkwork~!!

so my paypaypay will comecomecome~!! :DD

and, just nice- 12.12am

it's XinHui Cousin's 22nd Birthday today :)

Happy Birthday :D

2010-03-20T12:49:00.001+08:00

this song is nice. :D

anyway, Congrats to Shifu for getting GPA4. :)

i still don't think i'm in the wrong this time.

2010-03-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

this holiday is damn emo.

everybody's like so busy MIA-ing. ):

NEEP PUISI, TAY YULING, LIAU JUNXI, AUSTEN LOW & FIONA LOH better appear ASAP.

hais, but my "shout-outs" for them here are like useless.

on a much much happier note,

i've got Joeykoh on msn right now!! :D

2010-03-17T13:21:00.003+08:00

i'm having like all the weird weird dreams recently!!

creepy like hell can!!

1. a week or two ago. dreamt that i got pregnant just like that, without doing anythingg!! and best thing was the baby was about to due soon -.-

i know its a lil stupid, but i did googled for a dream interpretation.

so here it is,

To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.

okay, the dream kinda make sense then. (and not so creepy)

2. and then someday later, i dreamt of alot alot alot of blood. lucky i'm not one who's scared of blood, otherwise i would have died of shock in my dream alr lol

interpretation:

To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments

3. a week later i think, which was the night of 2 nights before, i dreamt of my birthday!!

since i'm planning my birthday to be having a chalet of 3D2N, i dreamt of the first night. it was nothing much i think.. just celebrating my birthday.

interpretation:

To dream about your birthday, denotes acceptance of yourself. You are celebrating who you are and coming to terms with who you are as a person.

4. last night, was scary. cus since it was 3d2n, i dreamt of the second night of my birthday (consecutively from the first) dreamt that i was elsewhere before i went over for a alcohol-party (LOL), but i never made it there. was stucked in a school/house/mansion. and i had a mission of idk-what lah. but then everyone there was nearly possessed. and i was told that it was going to be the end of the world. (probably that explained why there were spirits all around?)

i couldn't find an interpretation for this. but very creepyyyy!!!

i seriously would rather have some sweet sweet dream then wake up and know its not a reality, rather than all these blood, spiritual thingy. it freaks me out alot. ):

2010-03-16T22:29:00.003+08:00

musical carousels are definitely in my top 10 prettiest thing i wanna have. :D

i will have a house of my own and in it, there will be a display shelf specially for this!!

so pretty~! ♥

Happy 18th Birthday Shumin~!! :D

next up among 6 of us is mineminemine (; *excitttteddd*

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2010-03-16T03:19:00.002+08:00

/add on
something i saw this afternoon while "loitering" around in vivo alone.

" So many people along the way, whatever it is you aspire to do, will tell you it can't be done. But all it takes is imagination. You dream. You plan. You reach. There will be obstacles. There will be doubters. There will be mistakes. But with hardwork, with belief, with confidence and trust in yourself and those around you, there are no limits."

- Michael Phelps

2010-03-16T01:15:00.004+08:00

Punctuality is a virtue. (;

the bed bar is so cool ttm lah! :D

next time when i go over to US, i will sure go visit!

hahaha!!

here's the webbby:

http://www.thebedbar.com/

so cool so cool!!! :D

anyway anyway,

i know its super super random!!

but this is my siao-char-bor buddy aka drama queen ftw aka JOEY KOH HWEE MIN.

HAHAHA!!

she's drama queen ftw & i'm procrastinator queen ftw!! :DD

she's ♥~!!

hahaha!! Jojo!! i found this pic off your fb profile and thought it was cute, so here it is!!

HAHHAHAHAHHA!!! dont kill me :DDD

anyways, the skies are damn clear tonight. stars also very nicely and brightly lit above :D

2010-03-13T23:56:00.003+08:00

just a thought...

have been thinking things on the way back...

it's probably damn true that nobody's indispensable.

everyone's life goes on with or without you...

i won't make any difference in anyone's life even if i never came to this world.

if there must be one, i guess it will be less troubles, less problems.

suddenly feel that E can go on as well, with or without me..

and i guess it's my only talent... to walk one f big round just to end up at the same place i wanted to leave behind again.

2010-03-13T12:36:00.002+08:00

sky's turning dark, it's gonna rainrainrain.

& i don't like to go out when it starts to rainnnnn!!!

esp when i feel so tired, which i am now,

the dark and cold weather is soooo damn nice to sleep covered under the blanket!!

我很命苦... don't have the luxury to sleep in. (LOL)

but sigh.. i'm having classes today, and i don't wanna pon.

rah!

there's no point in saying this, but it's 12.39pm anyway. :D

HAHAHA!

2010-03-13T01:05:00.003+08:00

1.
Multiply the number of your brothers by 2
add 3
multiply by 5
add the number of your sisters
multiply by 10
add the number of living grandparents
subtract 150....
AND

the first digit of the remainder will be the number of brothers
the second digit will be the number of sisters
and the third will be the number of grandparents.

and and,

2.
a Man's Wife's Brother's Sister's Mother's Son-in-law's Brother's Wife's Son's Mother's Mother is ............?
Answer:
The Man's Brother's Mother-in-law!

hahaha! :D

2010-03-12T17:03:00.006+08:00

if i think about money all day long, will i attract money based on the law of attraction?

but opposite attracts...

and supposedly money "is the root of all evil"- therefore, negative,

so i should love money? -love = positive.

so law of attraction -> negative attracts positive and vice versa.

MMM. Money Money Money~ $$$.$$$

i'm not that greedy, don't need a lot...

just 10k each on my 10 fingers, good enough :D

2010-03-10T03:44:00.003+08:00

6ooth post. :)

on another note,
even if you are not giving me the space to breathe, i will find my own air.

and i think it's with me,
i should learn to be nicer to my family instead of strangers.
be nice to all, best. :D

it's 3.50am now.
goodnight earth. :]

E's where all my focus, attention, energy will be at now.

2010-03-10T00:42:00.001+08:00

give me space to breathe.

all i need is trust, trust me that i know how to take care of myself better than the others.

trust me.

2010-03-09T00:50:00.004+08:00

LOL. i typed a whole lot of bullshit, but decided that it's bullshit and backspaced it all the way. :/

i want my bro/sis/anyoneeee to sleep with me in my room everyday!!! ):
sleeping alone is so god damn lonely... ):
nobody to talk to until i fall asleep and that person get damn irritated cus she/he will be talking to herself/himself cus they dont know i fell asleep alr. ):
i don't like sleeping alone. raahhhh! ):

i should sleep soon cus my alarm clock is set at 6,
and i needa reach dhoby by 9.
otherwise the consequence for being late is unbearable, unthinkable, unimaginable this time. omgzzz.

so Goodnightttts! :D

2010-03-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

my new desktop picture

{<3}

2010-03-03T02:12:00.002+08:00

why can't you understand that i don't want to be normal.
i don't want to have a normal life; i don't want to be just any normal girl.
i swear you'd take everything back you said today- every-single-word.

i create my life.

2010-03-01T03:04:00.003+08:00

i've been tossing and turning on that damn bed for an hour or so, got a call from puisi and we chatted for an hour and a half and thought that i could finally sleep with my energy partially burnt out. but noooo! that's why i'm back here online.
it's 3.07am and i'm tired, but then again, not tired.
it's that kind of feeling where you feel tired, yet you are not.
okay, i'm not making any sense here, but i think you will know what i'm talking about.
SF had his bodyclock tuned back after being in China for six months and now he's a early sleeper. and i can't msg him cus he's sleeping. sighsighsigh.
i hate it when i'm feeling physically tired but mentally energetic cus its when my body and my mind contradicts each other and i can't fucking get to sleep. rah!! ):

i know this is like a whole chunk of words, but i don't care. cus i still can't get to sleep!

2010-02-27T14:16:00.003+08:00

i should start focusing on reality,focus on the things i want;

rather than lingering around in my own lala land, waiting for the impossible to happen.

10% 10% 10%.

2010-02-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

hahaha!
exams has never been so slack and yet accomplished at the same time :D
& i'm so so so guilty for skipping night classes. omg.
austen bad influence HAHA!

you know it's a super happy kind of feeling when a friend whom you haven't kept in touch with still remembers you. mad happy. :D
Joey koh! i'm referring to Zengying. rmbrmb? HAHAHA!
you know it's a super happy kind of feeling that you manage to break your own records of accomplishments. mad happy.
you know it's a super happy kind of feeling when you finally found your reasons for everything you are doing. mad happy.

i swear you will be so blown off by what i'm doing now;
i will make everything that you are dreaming and yearning of right now come true. :)
i'm a happy girl today. :D :D :D

2010-02-23T22:34:00.001+08:00

your motivation does not explain whether you succeed or fail. You have to
distinguish between reasons and motivation. The latter is what is important. The kind of entrepreneur who makes progress is the sort whose
motivation is enormous, irrational and immeasurable. It is the fuel that keeps
him moving ahead whenever stumbling blocks appear. You don’t go
anywhere if you are not motivated.

http://www.wharton.universia.net/index.cfm?fa=viewArticle&id=1393&language=english

2010-02-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

in just a few minutes difference,

(don't know what exactly was the convo, but something like that. haha!)
mummy to daddy(on the phone): eating dinner tonight?
daddy: no, working late tonight.

i called daddy not long after,
me to daddy: you eating dinner together with us?
daddy: where are you?
me : at home, so eating?
daddy: yup, of course.

HAHAHAHA!
after that when i told mummy that daddy's dinnering with us, she was like
"huh? i thought he say he working late? i call him now. bye. "

LOL! funny. :D
yay! great, now 5.30pm and i haven't study for my AFA!

2010-02-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

exam = studystudystudy!

ultimate boring ttm can.

but haha, this picture is cute :D

50% of the papers are down already, left 2 more. JYJY :D

CAT T5 results were out today,
thought i'd fail cus i got 1 whole question totally wrong and that question quite high weightage.
but nonono, i passed! :D :D :D HAHAHA!
although i really just scraped through the passing mark, but i'm still so damn happy lah! :DDDDDDDD

gonna shower and sleep alr.
nights peopleees. :D

2010-02-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

during dinner,
daddy: 孔夫子 in english is called confusion (cus kong-fu-sion)

damn cute LOL!

2010-02-20T00:47:00.003+08:00

okay, enough of r/s craps etcetc.
just suddenly hit me that,
life's definitely not like fairy tales where Prince Charming rides that white horse and saves you out of whatever shit you are in.
the reality is this harsh, happy endings never existed if you don't earn it yourself.
i should have realised this long ago.

it's not your fault if you are born poor, but it's your fault if you die poor.
i'm waking up now; cus
Success is my only motherfuckin' option.

2010-02-19T00:45:00.007+08:00

" My life is a series of changes.
A series of hits and misses, ghosts and corpses.
i've lost a lot and gained what i've taken.
this time, i won't be this girl anymore,
i create my existence through change."

F's 18 ♥

over to clarke quay later in the night :]
♥♥♥♥♥♥

enough of backdating. anw, check this out! :D

was at suntec's justnoodles the whole day- er, mugging.
having bad stomach now. ):
having a paper at 4pm tmr- POM.
sleeping soon.

and lastly,
HAPPY LEGAL AGE, YANRU!! :D

2010-02-17T14:33:00.004+08:00

范逸臣 - I Believe

“Just because you’ve done a good performance once, doesn’t mean you’re always going to be good. That’s why some of the greatest actors in the world have gone a little bit nuts. They’re saying to themselves, ‘What happened? You used to love me?’ ” DiCaprio said. “It’s an easy trap to fall into. You just have to
realize that when you’re hot, you’re hot, and when you’re not, you’re not.”

extracted from: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/35430619/ns/entertainment-access_hollywood/

surprise over at fiona's house was great!
but blog about it when i'm free-er.
now i'm off to studying :]

2010-02-16T10:33:00.002+08:00

1. Happy legal age, fiona! :D
2. i'm feeling so cash-restricted. :o
3. i need to start studying, like N-O-W, now!
4. i got craving for salmon sashimi
5. and more sashimi
6. and more and more and more SASHIMI :D hahahaha!
7. relatives coming over later on.
8. i'm feeling so very sleep-deprived recently; going to sleep at 11pm tonight
9. i think i will make myself a cup of green tea and then start reading through my POM :D
10. i'm typing like this cus i'm having the feeling-like-i'm-not-myself today LOL! (cus i think i'm exceptionally high but exceptionally tired) :O :O :O

LOL! LOL! LOL! LOL! LOL! :D

2010-02-15T01:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year &
Happy Valentine's to all couples out there. :]

so many heartbreaks...
and then seeing my friends so helpless make me sad also.
somethings are not meant to be be measured by the effort or time you put in; cus it takes 2 to clap.
and even if he is clapping in synchronize with you; his heartbeat may not be beating in the same rhythm as you.
lol. so complicated and i don't know what i'm talking anymore.
but cheer up, my dear friends :]

2010-02-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

ultimate shopping spree for today~
11am to 11pm. wooo~!
way more intensive than jogging :/
cus my feets are aching like mad and my wallet is bleeding dry.
hahaha! but still, love it! :D

did my very very last minute cny shopping with qiqi and angie,
and bought,
3 tops, 2 tanktop, 1 shorts, 1 leggings,1 pair of pumps (total-$136)
lol! i think both of them also spent around the same if not more for consec 2 days of shopping.
zomg, damn broke!
angpaooos, faster come~! :D

and, I NEED TO START STUDYING.
i haven't realised how close am i to exams till today ):

2010-02-11T11:24:00.003+08:00

stickmans are cute :D

i'm waiting for angie and yuqi to wake up, then can meet them and buy cny clothes.
but hope seems so far. zhou-gong like still halfway thru with them. ):
i hope they quickly wake up, wake up, wake up, wakeeeey up~!!

silly boy, you are so damn cute;
i love you still, very much.

2010-02-09T00:36:00.003+08:00

i always forgot to blog about this :D

nothing much really, but the bestest bestest thing about waking up early morning like 5plus or 6,
is to see the sky slowly brightening up.
cus the colour of the sky will get kind of violet-orangey (something like that)
and its really damn damn pretty! :DDD

Dawn is the time that marks the beginning of the twilight before sunrise. It is recognized by the presence of weak sunlight, while the sun itself is still below the horizon.

Nights Humans :D

2010-02-07T03:02:00.004+08:00

just how cute can you be

talk is cheap. and i'm contradicting myself so bad right now.

i hate my sinus, like getting worse ):

sleep is good, so just sleep.

goodnight~

2010-02-04T01:50:00.003+08:00

shits that happened,

1. some backstabbing shit.

2. stupid guailan taxi driver.

haha! but mind over emotions. :D

happy things that happened:

Shifu's BACK :D :D :D :D

x1000 yayness. hahaha! SMS-spam like always. :D

2010-01-31T21:19:00.001+08:00

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!

have had enough of these shit, I HATE YOU!!!

2010-01-30T19:43:00.007+08:00

be strong, be tough, be independent.

the best thing about alcohol is that when you are high, the fear factor is gone.

hahaha!

still smelling and tasting yesterday's whiskey and vodka, plus a lil martell.

i'm still high on alcohol, i think. :D

p.s perfect combination- dark mocha with peppermint, add vodka. :)

2010-01-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

are you truly happy?

touch your heart and ask yourself if you are or not, be truthful to yourself.

i'm truly, aren't happy at all... cus i miss you, like fuck. ):

be happy before making others happy;

love yourself before loving others.

i don't like such a timing of the month,

where emotions are overflowing and it feels like i can't control them.

hate moodswings.

have you ever thought like what if tmr was your last day?
i have, you know. and i even have a whole list of things to do and timings to do what on that day. lol!

in this order,
1. gonna fly over to brunei (to cook L's ___ with his homeland oil first :) )
2. have a small gathering with friends/family
3. have foood! - i want to lau yu sheng! :D cus i really like it. and i want oysters & raw salmon. bird's nest and shark fin's. and porridge cooked by mom; curry cooked by grandma; fried rice by dad; and i also want drink soup! LOL!
4. then then, go over somewhere to drink enough to get high
5. then go over to clarkequay and take that bungee ride thingy.
6. try pufferfish from japan. :D
7. and then go drinking again, this time until i happy.
8. last call to everyone.
9. have a damn warm and nice shower
10. then, lie on my bed in comfy pyjamas and hug a really goddamn big & cute stitch/garfield (in aircon room, playing a list of my favourite songs) to eternal sleep. :)

i think it sounds quite perfect leh. LOL! except something's missing out! my rollercoaster ):
cus if i die tmr, the IR won't be done building yet! so i think i will be satisfied with that clarkequay bungee thing. haha!

yah lah, i know you are going like wth? i'm doing well, kicking and alive, and i'm actually having an list of to-do(s) of what im gonna do before death. haha!
idk, such things just come to my mind so randomly :D

okay! sleep soon.

Goodnight :)

2010-01-27T12:36:00.003+08:00

i've been dreaming about my plans/goals/dreams/whatever you call it.

yesterday was me talking to this high authority guy in japan :)

hahaha! and funny-ly, i dreamt of voldermort being the bad guy inside as well. -,- LOL!

great, 12.40pm.

i think i should get myself to school, and needs to stop thinking that going to school is a chore- solution, find fun in it! lol. =.=

follow one course until success;

focus. :)

2010-01-23T21:20:00.003+08:00

from Pamela's blog (:
There once lived a granny and everyday, she would travel up the hill and to
the lake to get water. She always carry a pole over her shoulders and on each of
the pole would rest a bucket. The buckets would be used to store the water and
bring home. However, one bucket was in perfect condition while the other bucket
would be cracked. The bucket that was in good condition would always be filled
fully with water while the bucket that was cracked would only bring home half
the amount of water that it could carry because the water would leak out. So for
two years, the granny would only carry a bucket and a half of water home
everyday. As such, the perfect bucket felt very happy and proud whereas the
cracked bucket would feel ashamed of himself and unworthy.

One day, he
asked the granny: "Why don't you just get a new bucket? For the past few years,
I am only able to deliver half a bucket of water home. Due to my flaws, you are
only able to bring home one and a half bucket of water even though you worked so
hard to carry the water from the lake."

So when the granny heard how sad
the bucket was, the granny decided to bring the bucket to a place and the place
was the journey from the lake to her home. What the granny showed the bucket was
the beautiful flowers along the path of the lake. And she says to the bucket: "
I've always known about your flaws, I've always known about the cracks. So I
took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path and
because of you, these beautiful flowers would be able to grow and I am able to
pick these flowers and place them in my own house. And because of you this
cracked bucket, I wouldn't have experienced such a beautiful journey on the way
to collect water and I wouldn't be able to have beautiful flowers in my house!"
:D

So remember guys, we are all cracked buckets and nothing goes to waste. Nobody in the world are completely useless so never ever underestimate yourself and what you can do.
Never underestimate
yourself. Have Faith and Hope in yourself and others. Just like mud, it may look
useless and dirty to some. But to others, its valuable. Once its scooped off the
ground, it will become clay and has every opportunity to turn into a piece of
beautiful art work.
~ By Lindy Tsang

i suddenly miss dunman peeps,
those days when we always have all the craps and jokes in class; those days when we always slack around after school. ):
somehow, i don't really like growing up.

2010-01-23T14:13:00.003+08:00

saw this from somewhere, funny like LMAO! :DD

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haha! anyway, went mapling yst till 3plus am this morning.
lol, thats not the main point. (haha! like "wtf still mapling??" right?) :D

but main point is, there's actually SINGAPORE over in maple.
yes, Singapore. haha! damn cute lah! :D

i didnt take SIA or any known airlines over, i took the WIZET AIRLINES :D
and hahaha! there's like a merlion and ERP in every map. the monsters over there also very cute. hahaha!

see! Merlion (to your left of the screenshot)

HAHAHA! our all-time favourite, ERP :D

yesyesyes, Merlion again, right beside Esplanade. hahaha!

AND, hahahaha! my favourite Boat Quay. but there's no pubs or clubsss! LOL!
there's only a merlion spitting out water further in front.
hahaha! maybe maple should create a pub/club then inside got drunk monsters for us to hit.

and hahaha! apparently, i crossed the borders and i ended up in Malaysia, without having to cross the causeway. hahaha!

hahahah! things to do today-

1) study AFA

2) finish POM report

byebye! ^^

2010-01-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

go for what you want without boundaries,

and believe you will get it. :)

last name ever, first name greatest. :D

2010-01-22T11:36:00.002+08:00

LOL!
my new year resolution failed bigtime! - to be early for lessons.
haha! not only i turned up late, but i totally missed afa today. ):

i should start sleeping early and waking up early!
meanwhile, gonna pack my study table and prepare for ICA chionging. :D

i promise not to be late or miss lessons again next week.
(and maybe do some tutorials) :D

2010-01-17T14:51:00.002+08:00

currently addicted to this song!
haha! i'm replaying it like some addict :D

'Till I Collapse by Eminem :)

this part is the best-
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out - am I high? Perhaps
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.

2010-01-16T22:35:00.004+08:00

15Jan '10

Happy 22nd Birthday laojiao! HAHAHAH! :D

birthday celebration at clarkequay.
cake smash as a usual must-have (esp buddy :P) and see the sucker so happy with the greygoose we gave him. haha!
and thankyou bigtime to cousin who got me the ~~goose~~ vodka from airport haha!

then hang around the area for awhile before heading down to drink.
headed over to Glamours after that. :)

haha! the birthday song at Glamours which made austen so paiseh was the best. ROFL!
then waterfall treated by the boss :D
first time tried, damn shiok. the way it "burned" the insides after drinking. wooo~!
hahaha!
headed over to westcoast for the first time at 4am cus everyone was feeling quite emo( i think) haha!
sitting there, hearing the sounds of the waves and feeling the sea breeze is really the best.
took 5 all the way home the next morning, 1hr plus journey. but seriously, super nice!
slept throughout haha!
love the long bus rides.
maybe i should change back to bus concession next month lol! :D

haha! and yst was funny and unexpected,
edmund damn randomly msged me out of the sudden "you drinking & chionging ah"
and that was i think after i couldn't contact puisi cus i suddenly wanted to talk to her.
so i thought that his msg came in time. haha!
and because it was so random and unexpected, i quite scared i anyhow send sms-es again. but heng dont have. haha!
had a long good ranting session with him, while austen, yuqi & roy were waiting(oops, so sorry!)
but thanks for hearing all the rants dude! :)

haha! and i missed my nasilemak and soyabean! damn!
next time i will keep some energy to eat :D haha!

2010-01-13T14:34:00.003+08:00

just a short blogpost before i start with my POM report.

no blogging feel recently. hahaha!

so many things to do, but it's okay, still cope-able. :D

things are getting on track already, i think.

hehe.

for now, study study study~

i will prove them wrong that studies, fun, nightclass CAN be coped well.

meanwhile,

i don't know what i'm doing with you either, i don't know what i want about you.

i added you back on msn... waiting for you to come talk to me.

every second felt like a minute; every minute that passed felt like an hour; and an hour felt like a day. you never initiated.

i don't know what you are feeling.

thinking what to say? don't know how to face me again? or you just don't bother.

i'm confused... but i think i got you confused as well.

if that is so, i'm really sorry. but i really cannot go on without you.

2010-01-08T17:34:00.004+08:00

just another quick blogpost before i rush out for class.

i incidentally saw this : Mass killing of Dolphins to prove adulthood in denmark -click (?!)
like seriously, heartwrenching & super pissed off with those people in denmark!

they kill the dolphins every year just to prove that they are adults! to the extend that even the sea turn red!
like wtffff???!!! there are better ways to prove that they are adults please! killing dolphins just shows that they are fucking childish!
just what is happening to mankind!

plus, the dolphins don't die just like that. they suffer 3 times with human hooking them up and letting the organs fall out.
best part, this is a yearly FESTIVAL and people are actually cheering for this act.
like for what fuck!
and to think that these dolphins go near to mankind just for PURE friendship.

and i'm sorry that i need to say,
fuck you people over there in denmark! totally inhumane and brainless!
you don't grow up this way!

okay, bye. rushing off for class now. now i'm effing late.

2010-01-08T16:14:00.002+08:00

mm, have been staring at this picture for quite a while...
i think this pic is kinda artistically bloody/gruesome or whatever.
interesting.

okay, gotta rush down to somerset for class.
first day of class, meet new people, i hope they are nice. haha!

byebye. :)

2010-01-06T03:19:00.004+08:00

been feeling very uncomfortable today- itchiness and even breathlessness.
yes, that bad.
have been testing out and observing reactions and i'm suspecting the uncomfortable-ness was caused by the sotongs i ate this afternoon.
okok, no more seafood-esp prawns and sotongs for me. ):

just a few "promises" or whatever you call it to myself :D
i won't go drinking as often till i'm financially stable.
i want a comfortable & cozy house of my own. a car of my own. a land of my own. a bar of my own....
i don't know how i'm going to get that, but i will.
& i will free myself out from this fucking money restriction/limitation situation that i'm in and alot of us are facing

I will be strong enough to pull through the end. :)

2010-01-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

30mins before midnight- 2010's Resolution :D

1. be EARLY/PUNCTUAL for lessons!
2. better results in CAT/NYP
3. closer/maintain r/s with close friends, buddies & family! :]
4. be a nicer kid/sister/friend to whoever ;)
5. my atm HUAT AHHH! :DDDD hahaha!

mom's resolution for me : be less talkative :/
shifu's resolution for me : be a better tudi! LOL

alright,
blog more later on after my sleep!
haven't slept since 10am yesterday and i feel like im floating! :/

Have an awesome 2010 ahead! :)

2009-12-28T01:50:00.003+08:00

hahaha!
i think this is my first book of 2009 and maybe 2008 too. :/
quite pathetic, but i'm kinda proud of it.
LOL!
spent 6 hours reading it straight :D

haha, yeah, the book sets me thinking abt how i'm treating life and family.

& liked these few parts from the book -
something like this,
the unwavering love, the purest love of all comes from the only woman who could possibly give you the beginning of your own story.
and yet there are those times where we feel that they are such an embarrasment to be with or even throwing them with curt and unkind remarks. i've been through there before, or rather, going through them right now.
and them having to go thru so much to protect you from every possible harm, standing up for you in everyway they could even if you didnt, just to hear you say you feel like dying at the end of everything.
think about it.

and to that,
i'm sorry daddy & mummy for all the times i was being rude to you, for those stupid things i do to myself.
tho you won't see this, but i promise to be a better kid.

malaysia later :)

2009-12-27T01:40:00.003+08:00

Puisi's damn pro cus she managed to persuade me to get my goddamn ass outta house after i kind-of isolated myself for the last 3-4days.
hahas!
town-ed then homed at 12.30am
lazy to blog further. :)
♥♥♥

abnormality (bnôr-ml-t)
1. The condition of not being normal.
2. A phenomenon or occurrence that is not normal

2.28am; Goodnight :]

2009-12-25T15:42:00.003+08:00

just woke up 2hours ago.. (2pm)
was supposed to meet qiqi & jonnie at sk, but last min dad wants me at home to celebrate christmas.
sorry for the last min ps!! ):
but guess i can make use of this time to bond with family? lol!

anw, finally decided to clear my (junk) mails this morning.
look at the mails i accumulated over the past 1-2years!
haha.. finally got over the habit i picked up from dsew..

......

.........

...............

clearing clearing clearing~

after a tough time.....

finally cleared all the junk mails and shifted them to the "recycling bin"

-.-

i also cleared those in the "deleted" folder alr lah..

lost some emails i oringally intented to keep.. but oh well :)

christmas with family <3>

paranormal activity now hehe :)

thinking if i should change my blogurl..

2009-12-25T01:16:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !! :)

" Merry Christmas! hope you don't get drunk again"
hahas! one of the funniest christmas sms - kind of like an inside joke.

went to have a haircut today anw, and i look super different! :DD
hahahaas!
just realised i every month different hairstyle!! - last month was bangs LOL :/

a smiley to end the post - :)

2009-12-22T23:11:00.009+08:00

its a super damn long post with super lotsa pictures :)

ikeaikeaikea~
& never let a hungry person go buy food! let alone TWO! :D
look what we have over here- 6piece chickenwings, 10piece meatballs, 2 curry noodles

we couldn't finish everything and we ended up wasting the food!
wasteful wasteful~! tsktsk!

at ikea, just make yourself at home! :D

HAHAHA! esp after a super full lunch/dinner ^^

natnat says thats my future wedding dress on the left LOL!

and she's trying shoes at ikea! o.o

( climbs in bathtub )

"eh! got people come in"

"shit!"

headed over to giant afterwards :]

hahahah! nat trying to act cute? LOL

original plan was to go home have dinner with family.

but decided to head over to harbourfront to meet puisi instead :)

happy people with a happy day :)

i took damn long to upload the pictures & this is a super long post!

cus i felt all the pictures taken were so damn nice that i had to blog it up.

hahahah! :D

glad that i talked things out with my parents.

and at the end of it, we compromised-

i promise i will take care of myself, protect myself and they will give me the mutual respect with compromised freedom.

yes, and the first step to protect myself is to delete & block him for good.

last email, last goodbye. :]

2009-12-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

since things have gotten this bad, i'd rather you give up on me now.
don't pin your hopes on me.
just fuck it, you don't need to care about me now, cus i don't want you to.

sad to know, at the end of all the shit,

you still don't trust me at all.

funny how you mentioned ____ right straight into my face like it's nothing at all, like it doesn't mean anything at all.
well fuck, thanks, thanks for hurting me.

2009-12-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

Buffet-ed>Glamour>sent Nat home>Home at 1am ;)

To all my dearest girls:

anything just give me a call/sms, even tho we may not see each other as often now.

i will always be here for you like how you all have been for me :)

love you all always! (L)

& joey, you don't need to be independent. cus anytime if you feel like relying on someone and don't have anyone around, i'm just a call away. love you! ^^

yesyesyes! Christmas is nearing! so looking forward! :D

goodnight earthlings! :)

2009-12-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

hahahha! was finding something on my harddisk for one of my friend, and i found some of da ancient old pictures :P

wayyyy back (okay, not very long also), when i still had my long hair. HAHAHAS!

and i saw this phrase that i really liked and it came from my cousin's blog few years back,

really pushed me on back then.. and now, it did again. :]

" 命运总爱开我玩笑，让故事发展往往不在控制范围内, 和我唱反调;

我不信邪，我的戏，结局又我自己决定。"

the holidays are nearing day by day! yesyesyes! :D:D:D

in holiday mood alr~ :) still have one last presentation to go tho! jyjy

and i'm damn happy cus i'm finally getting to meet up with my girlfriends tmr after school! (L) :)

& can you help me...

i love you, but i dont. and it's killing me.

going to sleep early tonight since i'm damn tired.

goodnight & sweetdreams to all :)

2009-12-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

i miss SF !!! ):
miss those times when he was still in s'pore and i could randomly send msges to him or even call him 24/7.
now that i'm feeling so so so emo, wished so much i could just send an sms over like always.

2009-12-14T21:58:00.004+08:00

hahaha! i know it's like none-of-my-business kinda thing,
but still, i wanna blog about this...

that, gosh!! the way xiaxue boyf proposed to her is omg, damn sweeeeeeeeet!! :D

Mike was seen holding a small red box as he walked in with the crew before the movie “Couple retreat” was screened.
He reportedly said this to Xiaxue:
“Baby will you marry me?”

and before that, he actually booked the whole theatre and played some sweet pictures on the screen...

haha! for the video and more - click here
anw, that's like so damn sweet lah! hahaha!
and althought i dont know her, i feel happy for her! really! :)

haha! and i'm super tempted to buy spree stuff :/
kk~ gonna study html soon! :D

2009-12-12T21:14:00.001+08:00

2009-12-10T18:14:00.005+08:00

i forgive & forget
then you promise i won't regret it,
but i do.
& i'm crazy for thinking that you would change things when you keep crossing the line.

i didn't know what got into me,
you told me there's nothing to be ashamed of between us, there's nothing to hide.
but now, i'm totally regretting everything i've done.
i feel so so so fucked up, but nothing can be done to reverse things or even make things slightly better now.

2009-12-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

556th post- 12.49am.

hahaa! super sweeet! :D

happy birthday to kl anyway. :]

going to study~!

2009-12-08T09:19:00.002+08:00

Just a quick post before i go off to school
(yes yes, it's a tuesday and it's 9.22am now.
i just missed microecons tut this morning totally =.=" )

dearest Nat passed me a gift yst.
no, it wasn't my birthday or anything.
but she bought me a stitch knowing i like them! :D :D :D

Thanks a mil Nat! :)

love you! hahaha!

& wth! i feel quite unprepared for this friday's paper.
i studied, but still have that kind of insecured feeling.
shit. must study more :/
yaya, still have this thur's stats paper and i'm totally unprepared for it. yay? -.-

alright, off to school now ^^

2009-12-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

koped from a blog that nat showed me :D

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1. 当你收到“你干嘛呢？”实际上是想说“我想你了”。

2. 当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑。

3. 但如果是“哈哈”或者“嘿嘿”，这时你打过去一定是在笑。

4. 说你“傻瓜”或者“笨蛋”其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己。

5. 如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿。

6. “哦”多半是在敷衍。

7. 但如果是“知道啦”，“收到”，“遵命”之类的则表示比较在意。

8. 有时劝你忙自己的，其实他是口是心非。

9. 把他的傻事，丢面的或失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他。

10. 主动发信息给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦。

11. 如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点。

12. “我刚到”，“我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你。

13. “你到家了就告诉我一声”，“你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安了，我不许你有事。

14. 有时不会那么巧就发错给你，可能是他想发给你又实在又没东西发，虽然这样很愚蠢。

15. 收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是不忍心让你转发给10人，就偷偷把10改成了2。

16. 凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”咒语性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你.

17. 有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但不表示他草稿箱里没有。

18. 如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你。

2009-12-06T17:34:00.002+08:00

Sun in the Rain;

things are getting better i think. :)

today is the 6th, tmr is the 7th.. then 8.. and 9.

happy soon-to-come birthday :)

and hahhas! this is funny (inside joke),

Cheryl says:
5.33PM no sign of life, i think he's really dead
HAHAHAHAAHA
Natalie. says:
huhhh or is he still running?
Cheryl says:
ROFLLLL . THAT WILL BE EFFING FUNNY OKAY

2009-12-05T01:36:00.004+08:00

Band Concert@ NYP this evening to support yuqi :]
missed dunman's kaleidoscope!

& Happy 16th Birthday to Meimei! ^^ (3rd dec)

i need to start studying! RAH!

and the crab poison still not out of my body! itching like hell! rahhhhh!

saw this on Janice's msn & i really liked it alot, so koped! :D

" Don't ask for a light load, but a strong back. "

2009-12-03T03:38:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA!

DAMN EMO but FCUKING COOL!

4am; Good Morning world. :]

2009-12-01T00:59:00.004+08:00

i don't like things this way.

mummy is ignoring me.
daddy is ignoring me.
brother is getting very easily irritated with me nowadays.
sister is like her usual self, not caring much.

it's like a routine now.. to go home, bathe, myself in the room.
i don't like things this way.
why can't they talk things out, and settle things instead of leaving things like now.

i feel so outcasted at home now.
and home should never be the place where you have such feelings.
sucks.

or maybe they shouldn't have even given birth to me at all in the first place..
i'm always the cause of all troubles ..
am i really that extra , really that thorn in their flesh ?
why is everything happening all over again ?
fuck it, fuck life, fuck everything .

2009-11-30T01:41:00.001+08:00

歌手:萧亚轩
曲目：冲动

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂
♥

i'm still sorry for loving you . just keep things like that, as it is .

2009-11-29T14:08:00.004+08:00

They only let you be this happy if they are preparing to take something
from you.

i shouldn't have ever doubt that.

i'm being a good girl & staying home today :]

doing my revisions for 2 tests tmr & T5 .

better study . :/

2009-11-29T00:50:00.002+08:00

i dont understand you. you call yourself adults, but the way both of you are settling things are like damn childish. you always end the arguments by saying you are tired, and asking me to do whatever i felt like doing. when you have nothing better to argue back with me. fuck.

so what now? cold war? cold shoulder treatment? or feigning ignorance and act as if you don't fucking give a damn? seriously, this time, i don't give a fuck cus i'm seriously as tired as you said you are. i seriously don't want to go through a second round of what happened last year. you can feel whatever you want, i can and i'm prepared to talk things out anytime you are ready. i'm not being rude when i talk, i'm just saying things that are expressing what i truly felt. if you still think that i'm rude, then just too bad.

and btw, what you are doing now, is not love, its controlling. don't tell me its cus you both are concern so whatever shit. if thats the case, children kept at home should be safer than kids out. but really, the statistic don't show that. you never gave me a chance to express how i feel. you never trusted me. cus if you did like you said, you should have trusted my judgements as well.

mummy & daddy, i know who i'm mixing with more than both of you do. i know how to protect myself and take care of myself. you should trust me. cus i'm trying already all ways to gain your trust by letting you be involved in my life; letting you know who i'm mixing with, where i'm going, what time i will be back etc etc. but everytime i tell you the truth, everything goes haywire. so how the fuck am i suppose to tell you whatever i'm doing when things always end up so screwed after telling you the truth.

okay , i shan't be so selfish and push all the blame to you. everything turned out so scewed cus of both of us, i admit. you, because your so-called defination of a "good-kid" is to stay at home whole day, do the mundane housework chores and most importantly, do what you say. but sorry, i have different views. and it's not like i hadn't told you whatever i've blogged here. i told you everything, and even more. but you always choose not to listen and end it off with, i'm tired, do whatever you like.

in anyway, i won't repeat last year events again. i won't leave home again. but this time, i will apologise first, if you think that i'm a disappoinment, then so be it. cus i'm already tired, as much as you do, to try to do things to amend things that i don't even find that its my fault.

then again, i'm sorry for being such a disappointment, if thats what you want to hear at the end of this whole shit.

2009-11-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

super cute stitch keychain
super cute comic
& drinking at pungol marina :)

buddy , hope you are feeling better now :)

& yuling ! i'm feeling really happy for you too ! wish you last long long with him . love you! ^^

2009-11-22T23:30:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOWCHOW ! :]

caught Christmas Carol .
er , quite boring cus i nearly fell asleep a few times :/
but had a great day with my girls tho no birthday cake smash .
i'm not that evil afterall :) (hahas , but thats because the cake very ex . LOL )

hehehe! dad says my room will be ready when i reach home tmr night ^^

2009-11-22T01:30:00.008+08:00

2211 - always thought that it's a nice date ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST CHOWCHOW ! <3>

this morning walked past the flower shop ,
then i asked mom .
"mummy, what kind of 花 do you like ? "
"有钱花"
._.

now i know i don't only get my lame-ness from my dad, and also from my mom .
so combined - SUPER LAME ! ^^
& i've got their super lame genes. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

last minute met up with Puisi to study . :]
not very productive, but i did something!
arcaded . spent near $30-40 combined . both of us are so broke!
missed the last bus back , but managed to catch the last train home .
& we won a stitch plus a BIG bag of sweets!
MUAHAHHAHS!

2012 is super nice btw .

10 thumbs up! :)

everyone should watch it!

&& renovation works are nearly done up now :]

left only the fixed-in wardrobes and some touch up and my house is done ^^

love the way my house looks for now :DDD

and AUSTEN LOW , I WILL HAVE MY HOUSE BACK TO SLEEP VERY SOON ! HAHAHA!

2009-11-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

family day today :)

ducktour on the singapore rivers , singapore flyers , dinnered and homed :D

i love having family outings ^^

♥

don't know what's up with the stitch craze now .
but OMG , stitch are damn cute! :D
was googling for stitch images , & i had the urge to own all editions of stitch plush toy!

anwanw , i'm looking up and down, left and right for this particular one - pic below .
but in the bigger plush toy version . seems like can't find it anywhere already .
but if you see! please tell me okay! tyvm! :)

2009-11-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

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2009-11-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

met up to study with zhenna and puisi today :)

& shit . i should start panicking ,
cus i'm still not passing the trial tests D:

crossing the road while on the way back -
" eh ! don't need to run lah ! there's no cars! " looking at the left .
" the car coming from the other side lah! " (at the right )
starts to run .
ROFL!

the two loves ♥

hahahas! i love mummy!
told her i had the cravings for popiahs that day , and its on the table just now . :D

2009-11-07T01:11:00.005+08:00

~~today~~ yesterday was awesome ! :D

1. missed school cus i totally overslept !
2. had cravings for soup over at soupspoon , but plans totally went haywired after that . haha!
wanted to join angie, yuqi & the rest at pizza hut but ended up getting the location wrong :D
3. pool-ed . & to keep my promise of announcing this to everybody to AUSTEN LOW ZHI YUN (sucker!) -
Austen won me with 7balls on the table . ( rubbish! totally pure luck lah! cheapskate! HAHAHA! )
4. went over to meet puisi and zhenna . :)
5. hahaha! & yuqi gave me a super cute stitch today!♥ love it lah! :)

dad : hi darling , you joining us for dinner or eating yourself ?
me : haha ! i'm eating myself . :)
dad : rmb to bring your bones back .
me : okay :)
dad : :P

haha! daddy is like so super cute lah! <3

hahaha! and the 2 pictures of the day -
hiding at a not so discrete corner taking ~~scandalous~~ pictures ! LOL!
was really super funny taking these pictures lah! HAHA!

gonna sleep early tonight .
goodnights ~! :D

2009-11-03T01:47:00.003+08:00

it's a was Monday! :) - cus i just noticed that it has already passed 12am . hehe !
i think i suffered from the usual monday blues , which made me like damn paiseh in front of so many people! :/
& dropped by angie's workplace damn abruptly just now . hahaha!

yep , anyway , i'm currently kinda addicted into fb's cafeworld :D
hahaha! so dear friends, bear with me meanwhile . cus i'm going to keep telling you how much more hours i have to have my next dish whipped up :P
muahhahahhahhas!

see! my first 24hour dish which was finally nearly done!
was damn happy lah! :D
& i was counting down all the way fyi . HAHAHA!

i'm done with tutorial!
now i'm thinking whether wanna do a trial test before i go to sleep .
mmmmm .

i'm tired of being taken for granted all this while .

i can't be trying and giving 200% to keep this friendship going .

so if this is it , then i will let it go ; i will let things be the way it is now .

i will treat you as another passerby or just-another-friend like i am to you .

it's so disappointing to know that my once confidant is drifting away like the others , not giving a shit to anything .

but life's like that .

at the end of the day , i'd be thanking you , thanking you for building me . :)

Smile .

Let everyone know that today , you were a lot stronger than yesterday . :)

2009-11-01T20:04:00.005+08:00

i don't understand what's up with open relationships .
you say you love her , you want her as yours .
but you can accept seeing her with another man . why ?

i thought loving somebody , is wanting to be his/her everything . no ?
i thought no one can stand having to see the one they love so much being in someone else's arms .

cus i wouldn't have been able to stand it .
i dont ask for anything more, just knowing that one him is nobody else's but mine only , is all i ask for.
or is it only me , being too possessive ?

knowing your intentions so well ,

i still choose to be the dumb one , choosing to pretend and accept everything as it is now ; giving all i have and doing everything i can just so that i know you can be happy .

stupidity .

denial = what i want to believe - the facts .

on another note,
natalie just reminded me that 2009 is ending soon .
yeah , reminded . cus it feels like the year just started . LOL!

hehehe , andandand !
uncle seng says he's gonna apply for scholarship over at NUS next year. Goodluck! :)
i will work hard to get in too! muahhahahhas!

"cheryl , want go drinking ?"
" ROFL! okay , when ?"
" when you are 18 " & i totally went ._.

back to T3 .
still not passing the trial tests . RAH!
damnjohnseow .his existance in the school = death of students . esp to students who need to build their foundations from scratch .

daddy's flu like very jialat . hope he recovers soon! otherwise i'm gonna kena his virus also ! :\

2009-10-31T00:28:00.003+08:00

12.28 am

it's going to rain damn heavily tonight .
choose one : 1. its either sleep happily through the night under the warm covers or
2. emo in the room alone , feeling the coldness and listening to all the sad songs in the middle of the night .

i'm going to choose neither .
gonna spend the night doing tutorials. :)

so many things happening , emotions stirred .
time to update my diary . :]

2009-10-30T16:44:00.002+08:00

life is getting kinda boring . i think i need something new and exciting .
wrote a list of things that i wanna do (ASAP ) above . :D
but must gain freedom first . otherwise it's impossible . like skydiving and backpacking cannot be done in singapore ! freedom freedom freedom! :D

hehehe , still rmb that Fiona promised to go backpacking together when we are older :)
hopefully it will be soon .

anw , daddy booked the next test date already . 2 weeks from now .
which means gonna spend my time in the library doing tuts & revision again . :]

&& , i'm going to start saving up money! promised to get bro an ipod for his birthday :D
and i feel like getting one for myself too! hehe!
plus , if i have enough money saved on time, i think i'm going to get a bike for myself this christmas , or else next year's birthday :D
i still miss my old bike alot and still very pissed with that idiot who stole my bike last year ! #$%^&#$%^!!! >;(

alright!
going to spend my night at home doing tutorials for next week & intweb project .