i hate my current state of myself .
can i cut away the negative half of my soul & throw it away ?
everything's turning back again .
those negative thoughts , those sucidal thoughts ..
i'm scared going back thr , trapping in my own darkness .
go ahead ,
take a knife , stab it through me ;
drive a car , knock me down ;
or burn me away like a candle . just let me melt away .

omg, cheryl ong! what is happening to you ??